busy enji

on my other blog, i wrote something about being busy and feeling like i'm in over my head. that feeling is growing. and it doesn't really help that i haven't gotten enough sleep in the past couple days. i keep on looking for opportunities to serve and lead, because i seriously value trying to teach younger generations. they need leaders to look up to and friends who want to help them find their Saviour. so i've been throwing myself into being a youth sponsor, a sunday school teacher, and a leader at our School's inter- school christian fellowship. but i keep on realizing the more things i throw myself in, the more important it is that i have time to be alone with my daddy and my love. It scares me and i really don't want to give any of it up because i know these kids need someone. I keep on getting scared that i'll somehow fail them and maybe it won't matter anyway to their futures. and then i heard this quote and it's been something encouraging that's kept me going and kept me realizing that this is where i need to be.
"In a very real sense not one of us is qualified but it seems that God continually chooses the most unqualified to do His work, to bear his glory. If we are qualified, we tend to think that we have done the job ourselves. If we are forced to accept our evident lack of qualification, then there is no danger that we will confuse God's work with out own or God's glory with our own." - Madeline L'Engle quote from Holy Sweat by Tim Hansel.
I don't know about you guys, but these past couple weeks have been draining and i really need to have a big gulp of the living water, but it seems i never have enough time to just sit down with him. I have to make it priority over sports, tv, and even homework, much to my parents annoyance.
God lead me to a song yesterday that just felt like it was directed directly at me. it was something i could have written. It's called "unashamed love" by Jason Morant:

"You're calling me to lay aside
The worries of my days,
To quiet down my busy mind and
Find a hiding plave.
Worthy, You are Worthy.

I open up my heart and
Let my spirit worship Yours.
I open up my mouth and
Let a song of prise come forth.
Worthy, You are Worthy.

Of a childlike faith
And of my honest praise
and of my unashamed love. Of a holy like
And of my sacfifice
and of my unashemed love."

So i was going to end of this post by asking for prayer from all of you girlies, but i'm guessing i'm not the only one out there that has been feeling this way so i want to lift up some prayer.
God, we lift to you the burdens of our days. We know that you can handle our troubles and the things that stress us out. God we look to you for peace and we know that the spring of your spirit is calm and clear. God we want to just ask you if we can dip our hands into this spring to be refreshed and revitalized. God we all know we desperately need to dip our hands into this flood of peace and love. God, would you grant us patience with the people around us and hearts that seek you above all things. God, we want more of you. Our hearts are crying out and we desperately want you to reign down on us. In, your mercy would let us come into your presence on our knees and would you give us grace for all the times you wanted to talk to us but we were too busy for you. God as we look to lead others, in our workplaces, in the church, in our sports or music, in our schools, let us know how important it is that we are lead by you. we want to teach the words of the teacher. So be near us and keep on knocking at our hearts even when we push you away for other things that take up our time. God would you grant me discipline to come to you everyday and just talk with you. Open my eyes to new wonders in your word and knew wisdoms. God please also open my eyes to the hearts of those around me. I want to help those that are in pain and who desperately need and want you. God guide their paths to mine and give me the words to say, just like you promised Moses you would give the words, give us the words.
God i want to lift up specifically those who are sick or in pain that we know of right now. I think of Steph's uncle who has west nile, would you protect and heal his body? and would you also let him know that it's okay to seek help and that he has people in his life who desperately want to help him and in doing so show your love. I think of Erika's friend who just had a miscarriage. God that is so tough and its painful to hear about. God i don't understand why it happened and i don't know what will result of it, but would you bring peace to that family and hope for a future. God i think of my friend who has an eating disorder, make your love for her blind out any thing else that showers her. God Make her know how beautiful she is to you and how much you love your bride. God i think of Rissy's brother, God i don't know what's going on with him, but you know his thoughts and his hurts. God please let Rissy be a shining light in that situation and her be able to tlak to him in love. God, for Sarah's friend at work who is cutting, i know you can fill her and give her satisfaction and i pray that you would fill her with your spirit and a taste of you that she will not be able to deny. Help sarah show that abundant life that you promise and you provide. God i pray for my friend who is gay. Father, I have NO IDEA how to talk to him. lead me to words that can express how i feel. I need to come to him in love and unjudgmentally. God grant me wisdom in that situation. God i think of Trent's brother. I don't know the specifics, but i lift up the situation to you and trust that you have full power over that situation. let trent be filled with words to say to him and patience with him. God for my little friend in youth help her know that she is wanted and she is loved and she is valued. God you love her and i know you're calling me to befriend her. Help me get through to her and help her find a community in this church. God for my friend her at school who doesn't feel valued, god let me listen to her and God surround her with people who listen to her and value her opinions. You value her, but god let us as your body show that love. God for my brother, who is about to make a big decision, i pray that you would tug at his heart is this is something your calling hiim to do. God, for those with hurts or things to bring before you that i don't know, i trust that you know and you care about those things. Lert me know if there's someone i need to talk to. god in your holy name i lift these things to you. We love you and as much as we know we fail, we know that you are perfect in your power and love. God we love you. bless our days. and thank you for my mexico girls!!