Daddy, thank you for the blessing of friendship and for each and every person that comes into our lives and changes a piece of who we are. thank you for this blog and the authenticity and support we can find here as sisters.
"Bend down, O lord and hear my prayer,
answer me, for i need your help
protect me for i am devoted to you
save me for i serve and trust you
You are my God
Be merciful to me, O Lord
for i am calling on you constantly
Give me happiness, O Lord
For I give myself to you
O Lord, you are so good, so ready to forgive,
so full of unfailing love for all who ask you for help
Listen carefully to my prayer, O Lord,
Hear my urgent cry,
I will call out to you whenever i am in trouble
and you will answer me."
Psalm 86:1-7
God, i know that there are things in this world that scare us and things that bring us pain. Father, that right now, you would give comfort to Katie. Hold her in your embrace and tell her again that you have a plan for her life. You have promised her a future that is good and not evil with hope and not pain or fear. Father, i pray that you would bend down and listen to her prayer. i pray that you would give her happiness in knowing that you are near. I pray that you would give her courage to realize that you have given her a gift with the violin and you take great joy in listening to the music she makes. God i pray that the pain or sorrow or anxiety that she feels about Marla would leave her as she plays and she would play her violin in honor of the long hours that Marla had taught her and in honor of the God that gave her such a gift.
God, for Marla, we ask that you would be near her as well. God, you are a god of compassion and unfailing love and i pray that whether or not Marla knows you now, your presence would be made know to her as she goes through a time of undertainties and fears. Give her strength to fight adn joy through pain. Saviour- you can move the mountains- you are mighty to save, my God is mighty to save. God, I love that you have promised us hope and i love that one who is all-powerful and holds everything in his hand cares so deeply for each and every life. God, only you have the power to save.
I pray also for Katie, that her faith in you would be strengthened and she could grow deep in understanding of what it means to trust you adn love you even though she may not understand you. draw her deeper into trusting you with her whole heart and mind. i know you love her.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
for leanne...
alrighty so leanne has been bugging all of us to post but she sent me a message saying i MUST have something to write about and well i guess i do (kinda) so i guess i'll write.
so you all know that i take violin lessons, i've taken them since i was 4 years old. and for the last....three years? four years? i don't know exactly but anyways i've been taking lessons for a lady named marla and she's really good and i really like her. and we've actually kinda become friends i guess you could say...but well we have a really good time every week and yeah anyways. well about a month ago now (maybe a month and a half? i suck with time) she was diagnosed with breast cancer. she had surgery and is now going though chemo and so far it's been ok but it hit me really hard. when i found out i broke down and cried, i mean, i cried in front of my mom for goodness sakes, which is something i can't even remember the last time that happened. so i haven't even seen marla since like 2 weeks before i found out she was diagnosed, as my lessons were cancelled for the rest of the year. i don't even know if i'll have lessons next year. but it's really strange, how hard it hit me. i mean, i still cry about it. people will ask me how violin is going and i say fine and then i leave and compose myself or have a little cry party. it's a little odd. i never realized that something like that would hit me so hard. maybe i'm just extra emotional? but it hurts. i can't play violin. i have played twice since i found out; once because my mom made me practice and once for worship night for youth a couple weeks ago. and i cannot explain in words how hard it was for me to play. especially when i practiced my pieces. there are so many memories and so much of marla there, and i just can't do it. i can't play. which is odd, because really i love violin and i love to play and usually when i don't play for a couple days i miss it and my fingers itch to play. but i don't miss it. well i do, really, but i don't want to play. it hurts too much to play. and i don't know why.
so there you go, leanne and everyone else. that's part of my life right now.
so you all know that i take violin lessons, i've taken them since i was 4 years old. and for the last....three years? four years? i don't know exactly but anyways i've been taking lessons for a lady named marla and she's really good and i really like her. and we've actually kinda become friends i guess you could say...but well we have a really good time every week and yeah anyways. well about a month ago now (maybe a month and a half? i suck with time) she was diagnosed with breast cancer. she had surgery and is now going though chemo and so far it's been ok but it hit me really hard. when i found out i broke down and cried, i mean, i cried in front of my mom for goodness sakes, which is something i can't even remember the last time that happened. so i haven't even seen marla since like 2 weeks before i found out she was diagnosed, as my lessons were cancelled for the rest of the year. i don't even know if i'll have lessons next year. but it's really strange, how hard it hit me. i mean, i still cry about it. people will ask me how violin is going and i say fine and then i leave and compose myself or have a little cry party. it's a little odd. i never realized that something like that would hit me so hard. maybe i'm just extra emotional? but it hurts. i can't play violin. i have played twice since i found out; once because my mom made me practice and once for worship night for youth a couple weeks ago. and i cannot explain in words how hard it was for me to play. especially when i practiced my pieces. there are so many memories and so much of marla there, and i just can't do it. i can't play. which is odd, because really i love violin and i love to play and usually when i don't play for a couple days i miss it and my fingers itch to play. but i don't miss it. well i do, really, but i don't want to play. it hurts too much to play. and i don't know why.
so there you go, leanne and everyone else. that's part of my life right now.
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